Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
I was suppose to study for my exams, but I have mentally challenge myself that a suicide novel is way better since my grades are on the brink of committing suicide altogether.It was an emotional overnight read. I did cry, hey we all do, and I started my class with a quiet a swollen eye. (My friends thought someone died)
“I wonder if that’s how darkness wins, by convincing us to trap it inside ourselves, instead of emptying it out.”
Ladies and gentlemen, THE FEELS!
The book start-off with the main character, Aysel seemingly bored in her job and was at a website about suicide, then there was a forum for Suicide Partners, now this feel likes Africa’s assisted suicide, but no you both schedule your deaths in a certain agreed date, agree on how would you two kill each yourself and die together, so this is not like Africa’s.
The story build was strong, and it holds it’s own even on how many suicide-related books I have read so far these year. The only problem was how abruptly the book wrap-up. I kind of wished we got to see Aysel’s father towards the end. All we have from him was flashbacks on Aysel’s childhood and how he killed the almost-Olympic Athlete kid.
It will make you think about what matters the most to you and why it’s so important to keep those things surrounding you all the time.